I think you're being way too hard on yourself. Sure you lied, but It's not like anyone's lives here change dramatically rendering them not able to sleep at night. From my perspective, you've been kind of my boss in CCA RP for almost half a year and I and everyone else assumed you were a girl, Cool. But now you've decided to tell everyone that you're a guy. That's fine too because It's such an unimportant factor at least here. I mean looking back it may be a little strange but It's nothing that you or anyone needs to worry or feel guilty about. Hope it doesn't bother you or that you feel you have to let it.